Aha

Just been reflecting on things lately, this weekend i haven’t gone to see the gf because she couldn’t see me because of her cousin.
I’m using this time to sort my life out and doing my own things.
I have gone to the gym and treated myself to a shirt and a tie, I know its boring. But hey lately I dont have a motivation to do and get anything. Just don’t see the point in buying things that’d I’d want I eventually give up onnit.

I just need sometime to care for myself as no one does want to care for me at a deeper level.