in bed

in bed cold this morning. I guess i do need a couch or something.
i need to plan the Xmas holidays as well as NYE with the family and friends. It has been awesome sleeping over at Olivia’s.
last night we had our regular four-play and I ended up coming a lot all over the place.
i think its the first time she’s seen someone ejaculate.
she was laughing and kept saying sorry. There was nothing to be sorry about!.

i’ve got a call with HR today to discuss my health and me coming back to work in new years. i don’t know quite sure what i need to do and how its going to play out.
i don’t even know if i should go back to the same department or another. if i do go back there will be that tension still and the stress may come back, it will all depend on how strong i am to push these additional work away from me.
if i do change department i’ll feel guilty leaving the old department and lose friends, progress in this long term project.

i just bought a new theme from bootstrap and it looks aMAAZING! i have to update our site to that theme. its unreal! so clean and so professional. no way this can be that awesome!.

ok anyway, i’m working on it now to see if i can get it all up and running in time for this. gosh the page is still unpacking. its mental.
the new template is called purpose.
i’ll get this out of the way fairly soon and push for a final list of pages to be completed.
the aim is to publish something by friday.

sometimes dropbox just sucks in terms of speed, it doesn’t really connect, etc…

i have to setup the main template from scratch, reload everything up.
i also need to review the content published on upwork later on.

i love the new template
i need to commission out some of the icons for the site.


it has been a few days since i’ve posted. Hopefully this will help catchup with what’s going on with me.

for the past 2 days i’ve been feeling better but i dont have motivation to go gym. I know i should and I shall go today.

I am aiming to go to the pharmacy to pick up my medication, then cycle to the gym, do a few work out on the chest and arms, head down to ASDA to pick up :

  • mushroom
  • tortilla
  • avocado
  • frozen veg

then head back home, shower, shave and get ready for later.

I dont think i’ll stay at the gym for long as its still cold. I do feel like a lack of motivation but hopefully i’ll be ok. i’m going to eat a small amount before going then come back.

i will also need to think about ad creatives so that I can get some ideas for my business. These should help.


tomorrow i need to go through the landing pages and clear it up. I also need to cook some udon noodles for the mini moo.

I am going to go to the gym tomorrow morning too, i’ll cycle there and see how it goes.

i’m trying to restrain myself from purchasing new things, i thing its not good to keep looking at new things.

tomorrow i need to clean up the landing pages and sort out these issues with the website and get the pages comissioned properly. I also have counselling tomorrow afternoon.

the journalling is helping as well as meditation


I am going to go the gym this morning and work on my core and arms.

i’m going to cycle there and then also get some fresh milk on the way back  and see if i can read something there or not.

today’s main aim is to contact lisa about what i’m going to do when i get back. obviously i want to work again but not under high amount of pressure. I need to be able to deal with the CBT and get over it.

Contact lisa and ask her what I should be doing when I am back and if they still want me. Then I can confirm to renew my tenancy agreement and for how long.

once i am done withgym i am coming back here and getting a brunch or something. I will then tackle the CBT mind over mood to see how it goes.