Finally some time to myself

ahhh finally some time to myself today. i am at home, chilling, and waiting for the cleaners to clean up my things. I am going to go to the pharmacy today to pick up my prescription. I was a bit naughty with the breakfast this morning. I had 2x pain au chocolat.

the aim today is to finish the majority of the essential pages of the site. This means getting the stuff down on paper/design + also start looking at the web copy. i need to ask my dad for the reviews of the web copy so that i can upload them. once this is done we need to identify all the pages on the site that needs converting.

the MacBook seriously needs a touch screen. its mad that they dont have any. i don’t think they are ferocious enough to get that business done properly.

i am going to go to the pharmacy later around 11 or so to pickup my medication. i am also going to look at review the adwords this week for the last 7 days’ of data. i will tackle the search terms as well as some ad creative.

thinking about it i should really be focusing on the writing element this morning. so i should finish up some of the web copy today or mind map at least…so that i can upload it online for review or even get ideas for the website. i need to start a mind map of all our benefits and value proposition even if they are the same as other competitors but we should try to highlight it to others.

i think this is what i am going to do this morning for 30min or so. tackle the mind map.


today i feel a bit ok. I was really tired this morning. but i am glad i finished my book, the relic, last night. it was awesome!

well detailed and explained. I love the facts and the intensity of the book.

today i am going to rest and not go cycling or exercise. i may need to go to the pharmacy later to pick up my prescription.

i also need to resolve this job post that i created to hire someone in to do the job. I think this is priority for me today. I also bought a used gitbit. it does the job and i’m glad im tracking my sleep, etc…

im in bed this morning while the cleaner is cleaning the place up.

I will move out of her shortly once i’ve regain my legs back! bloody pins and needles.

once i sort out the upwork thing, i am going to look at writing up a plan for the display marketing. after reading the book on getclients now i see that marketing is a system and not a magical thing. i need to update and work on it on a continuous basis.

I need to start off with just getting more clients aware of our business. I will take a look at the locations and towns of the enquiries and see where we are mostly tasked to undertake the job. I’ll downlaod the report and do that.

I also need to double check all the landing pages if they are working and propbably make them static. From there I could just display the static images and that is it.

  • Download the landing page report
  • Check each page to see what’s working
  • see if they work
  • download them into html
  • Host them/or change the locations
  • The next thing
  • I need to download the list of ads, identify the changes and prepare a weekly report to review
  • From there we can understand what is performing on a weekly basis.
  • i will then need to spend some time to remove and improve the CTR of these ad copy. The problem is that there are loads of factors.

Display marketing

  • I need to write a plan up to see what needs to be done for the display marketing. I understand that this is going to take some time and work. my idea is that i can add 1 display ad every week/2-3 day and write an article to support it so that i can build a following. but this means that i need to design the blog page for the main site via django.
  • I dont think this is going to be hard. I can use disqus as the commenting system for the site and build upon that.
  • i think it will not take toooo long to build. I can use the same design scheme as wordpress for the listing, and writing setup so that i can just write up the code. i need to find a good IDE that i can add to the page and just crack on.
  • I will also need to add an upload page for documents, etc… and build a insertion page that displays all the files’ link or whatever
  • but all these details will become clear once i get to this section . I am going to think and run it at the back of my head for now and wait.
  • Later i’ll do this

I think my hands are full for now so I think i am going to get started with the above.

for the rest of the day, i just need a quick clean, and go for a walk to get the soft tacos for later. if not i need to find a place for olivia and I to go for dinner or something tonight. As its cold i am not to keen to go for a walk but it should feel good doing some exercise.

Sometimes i feel that i am a pig, i am so dirty at home and i dont clean up after myself. i need to read that book on cleaning after myself and also get more books from the pentergas series.


Stressed out today a little because my dad is asking me to fix up things at work. There are deadlines for him and he is not helping by talking to the contractor directly

i feel like it needs to be done asap or i’ll have palpitation.

I need to get things done now and now. i feel its taking me away rfrom my duties.


if i could do anything

if i could do anything to setup the perfect ad it would be:

  1. hire the best copywriters to write google text ads to convert, their landing page text and sections
  2. prepare an amazing video that explains the services
  3. have an amazing landing page that was design and written by top people in the world.
  4. have a marketing team track every usage


August update


Its been hectic for teh past couple of weeks.

I finally have taken a break for myself from everything too hectic or meeting people. I’ve been cycling non-stop for 6 days now and its just aching all over. I am going to my parents tonight and then rest for the next 2-3 days.

I am so so aching these days but i am losing weight. I am trying to work on myself as much as I can and also work on my dad’s website.

today i am in a nice little costa in kingscross and I am planning on doing some work on the adwords marketing for my site. its raining outside and I just want to curl up and sleep. There is a lot to do but meh… another thing i want to do is listen to an audiobook all night.

i need to take some time off from all of this and do nothing. I dont want to work anymore, i do like my job but i am fed up with everything going on. it is stressing me out.

i am going to download the marketing data today and remove any crap words into the filtration and add any interesting keywords on the system. 

my idea that im working on

After speaking to my counsellor today i feel better and pushing forward to be positive.

I also think that going cycling or whatever pushes me to get better and being on top of things. I knew that doing some exercise would push me to get better. All i am doing now is riding around catford / bellingham to see things around.

I think just cycling around to see things helps.

the idea that i am working on is selling size 3 shoes. i know its so specific but it is something that could potentially work. the only downfall with this is that I am not a woman and I am not great with what’s great.

The best thing for me to do is to ask the market what they want. Especially ladies with small feet, I think specialising in small shoes could potentially help.

here is a list of things i need to do:

  1. Prepare a website – identify the categories of shoes and how they are shown + prices so that we can upsell these to the market.
  2. identify a list of shoes and prepare a structure for the website
  3. Pick a few shoes from the website where they are made in leather or of high quality material that we can order and test.
  4. Understand the market and if there is a demand – how ? – give away 10-20 pairs of shoes from a selection of 24 pairs on the website in return they review and provide a feedback of the shoes. we need to make the questionaire long enough to justify the return on investment. the idea is for them to browse through the site looking at different menus and section for the shoes.
    1. the questionnaire needs to identify the location of these people
    2. the facebook profile (which includes all their age, etc…)
    3. what they are looking for
    4. their pain point and how they have been solving it
    5. ideas of solving it and what the current market is and how they go about resolving their current problem.
    6. also if there is a current problem with finding the shoes.
    7. what are they looking for in shoes
    8. what other problems do they face when ordering online?
  5. test the questionnaire
  6. Gather information on the type of searches they make on the website as well as the pages they view on the site so that we understand what they are looking for. This gives us a good indication of how they use the website and also what they look out for. it will seriously help us build a better website and understand the users on it.
  7. This will also help us narrow down the shoe sizes/style and colour we need to look out for
  8. Allow the customers to design and identify a manufacturer willing to design and manufacture the shoes for us. Only make 10-20 pairs but at one size.
  9. we need to also target pinterest/instagram/facebook to allow us to collect enough information about shoe sizes.
  10. prepare marketing before all holidays, especially xmas to try sell these shoes on time.


the next thing i need to do is list all my assumptions down on the problems of selling this product. 

business ideas for passive income

i’m re-looking at passive income ideas to see what i can work on to make some money on the side. I am sick and tired of working.


i really want to building sometihing that where i can just use my phone and just order new stock /or just do the marketing.

i dont want to get stuck in this boring life of just working for other people. I am smart and i am skillful/ i shoulld be able to write  loads of books on game or something of that sort. the only thing is that I dont want to teach face to face. I feel that i can potentially outsource this to friends of mine. 

looking good

feeling better in the couple of days.

albeit…the pain such as headache and my body not wanting to do anything. I just pushed through and ignored the pain. it felt good after going to the gym last week and doing some of the approaches.

i think i need to do some more approaches this week and kill it through the week doing solo. i need to get more and more approaches, get fitter and leaner.

i am planning on getting a dietician or pre-prepared meals to help with my diet.

i am also thinking of subcontracting a book; either one that teaches on how to get a home extension, renovation or whatever in easy steps. sell our services through the book. it has to be informative and around 10k words or so.

or… a book on hypospadias and dating.


i also need to prepare an adwords report with calculation. 

fucking day

Im at work today. I forgot to bring my keyboard and i’ve got a lot of thiings to do.

This morning i feel a bit shit, i was really numbed out.

Last night i couldn’t take my propranolol because i ran out. So i went to the chemist in the morning to get another 2 pack from my prescription. I drove down to croydon, just oustide of work there was a terrible crash. Two cars collided.

Ouch i feel and know the pain of the car crash especially living with the consequences and the aches/whip lash from the incident.


I felt woozy about my own situation and I just didn’t want to do anything this morning on the way to work. I just didn’t want to go to work.

I was contemplating of not working anymore and take time off from everything. I just want to get healthy again. Would going back to the gym help? Would losing weight help?

As we speak i am sipping on a horrible Meal replacement from PHD. its so thick and keeps me full. I just can’t finish the damn thing! Everytime i leave it to rest it gets thicker by the minute.

Maybe that’s how it keeps you full inside your stomach?


Yesterday I tried to cry but it didn’t come out, i had one tear drop out my eyes. All i wanted to do is cry but halfway through or just before starting it just didn’t come out.

It was really weird.

I wanted to get better by letting go of things in my life.


I am not sure what the fuck is going on with me with this issue.


I am happy with plesk, i think i am going to purchase a yearly license for the server to run on with the emails.


I am finally getting the payment done for my suppliers at work. Gosh it took very long. I had not motivation to do anything but it kept eating me up at the back of my head. I was not too happy with that but i just didn’t have the energy to do it.


I was also so close to text janet last night, i don’t know why, i was not feeling anything for her but anger. Anger against me and her. I repressed a lot during the relationship and i should have raised my concerns earlier when she didn’t give a shit or even introduce me to her family within the first year of being together.

She has issues. She was hiding me away from her sister recently because she thinks of what other people would say rather than what she wants. She value gossip than friendship….maybe that is why i walked away from her.


Today i’ve got counselling. I’ll have to tell her if she is registered with bupa, if not i will start counselling in the south with people close to home i guess. 

mental health

some time ago i intereviewed someone f or a job.

he was working in a pizza factory.

he was struggling and i felt bad. i wanted to take him on board but i couldn’t. he was not in ga good position. he was struggling. he went to do courses to get a better life but he just couldn’t do the job. i felt bad about it. i hope he is ok.

he had a family.

kids and a wife.



another one is tofi he worked with me.

i feel bad that he couldn’t do his job. he left because he couldn’t do his job.


and now….

i am not able to do my job. i feel useless.