Sunday thought

I really need to start keeping myself busy so that I can keep going and not give up. This may be a perfect opportunity for me to forget about my ex and start thinking about the future.

My aim atm is to lose the last 6-7kg and build a good chest so that maybe I can hit off with someone better than my ex.


breakup is damn hard

I recently was in a realtionship but ended because of being honest. I told her a lot of things about my situation with my visa and that has ended up getting her very upset.

Note to self:

  • keep things like that to myself
  • whitelies are ok
  • don’t rush things
  • make yourself hard to get

this first relationship got me thinking about other ones and this has given me a lot to think about. I’ve learnt not to mess things up and to keep things cool.

Anyway after this breakup I’ve been hitting the gym, with one motivation in mind; lose as much fat and to get a really good body so that I can show her what she is missing out if I ever see her.

Well it beats anything in motivation for me atm. 


lately I have experience the best thing in life but for it to be taken away. For the first time in my life I had a girlfriend, I had a job, I had a future. But it all got taken away around the 13th of February.

My life started to crumble, I lost my job on the 16th of feb and two weeks ago exactly I lost my girlfriend (Alex).

Life is pretty hard, they give you things to lose. This is just a vent off.

I am getting deported because my solicitor messed up with my application and because the HO found that I was earning too much for my age to classify me as dependant.

Life doesn’t want me to win.

ATM I am just living day by day trying to sort things out, going to the gym and losing the pounds off until my gym membership runs out.

I really need something positive that will help me in my life. ATM it feels that everything is one thin thread which is just about to break anytime. I don’t want to go back now. I want to earn my degree and then move on with my life.

I really need something to change for the good for me and my family. Its unfair.